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Friday, December 6, 2019

Knitting As A Lifeline

"Literally holding my breath.  Waiting for the next thing to happen.  Not feeling a foundation underneath me."
That’s how I feel if I'm not knitting every spare moment.  Between projects, to let my hands heal a bit, makes me feel a bit like flotsam in the sea.  Tensions rise, bickering increases, boredom sets in. 

I used to be able to fill in the time with other productive things while not doing patchwork or knitting.  It was a break time to catch up with organizing, or cleaning, or just leaving the house.  Now, not so much.

  There’s been an increase in the amount of stress here in the last year, and it’s almost the anniversary now of all the beginning of that stress.  The year has pretty much flown by.  I still hope this coming year will be better and bring some relaxation and more happiness.  It’s not looking to promising right now.

So, I still need my lifeline - knitting - to carry me through.  I can take it with me like a security blanket small enough to fit in my purse, but now I have project bags that are easy to carry.  I can sit with it in any room, and keep my mind occupied no matter what’s going on around me.  I have something pretty to look at and concentrate on too.  I can shut out what ever is going on, but still be present and aware of what’s happening.  Or I can just totally shut everyone out, even if they try to get my attention.

After all that’s happened in the last year, I feel like I just want to be alone.  That’s not going to happen for a while either.  And probably when it does happen, I won’t like it very much.  Then I’ll be craving for the chaos.  It’s either is going to rain, or it’s going to pour.

  I never know what’s going to happen anymore and I realize more now than ever that my plans don’t mean much.  I can’t predict with any certainty what ‘s going to happen next.  So, should I throw caution to the wind??  No I think I will just try to make myself as happy as possible and not care too much what other people think of me, and just continue to do my thing, no matter what that is.......

Monday, December 2, 2019

Too Good Not to Share: Notes From Beginning of 2019



Dear World:

I am running out of people to write letters to.

Christmas was pretty fun, but after that, it seems like the world exploded.

Lots of things have happened.  I feel a need to make note of them like on Star Trek, "Captain's log, Stardate 41153.7. . . . "
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“Maker’s Log, early 2019.”  The world is exploding.  Everyone in government has lost my confidence, while they have lost their minds.  They’ve forgotten that government is for the people. 

I finished my second brioche knitting project, a triangular shawl, in a repetitive leaf pattern, using a pale pink color yarn and a deep reddish burgundy color named, “Poison.”  It’s beautiful.  I think I’m glad I finished it, but now there’s a void to fill.

Working on a sock pattern, and a mitten pattern.  Both are messing with me.  I think I’d rather let brioche knitting drive me crazy than a simple sock.  I think I found my next brioche project already.....


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My littlest companion died on me.  Yes, my Maddy Lou left me, after 11 years.  I conducted my own little funeral for her, playing “In The Sweet By and By” song at her burial.  I wrapped her in my old green sweater, and laid her in the ground at my pet cemetary.  I miss her so much.  I spent a lot of time taking care of her since she was a puppy.

She came from Alabama and was hell on wheels ever since.  She bit everyone, even me.  It ended up that I was the one who would groom her.  She hated anyone touching her feet, her back legs, her hiney, but mostly her face.  Oo la, la.  So what part does that leave?  She didn’t mind me shaving her back, belly or neck. Big deal. Best little watchdog I ever had.   Saying “What is that??” would elicit a growl and alert stance.  Telling her “Watch ‘im!” and she’d go over to whomever I wanted her to watch and she’d stand there and growl. She looked prim when trimmed, but she was a scrappy ball of fire, just like a junk yard dog.  And she’d boss those rottweilers around like nobody’s business.  Pull them around by their cheek flaps.  All twenty two pounds of her.  Loved that girl.

“I am in mourning.”  – Stands With A Fist

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Family emergencies popped up, all at the same time.  Bankers buying back houses, evictions, mental illness, life threatening surgery, pending back surgery.  Not ratting on family.  Secrets and lies.  They are all looking for a way to survive.  Calls in the middle of the night.  Driving somewhere to pick someone up.  Feeding, sheltering, advising.  Surviving.  The funny thing is, if any of them moved in with us, we’d either be like the Kilcher’s in Alaska, but more probably like the Donovan’s in New York.  (Yuc, yuc, guteral laugh.)

   (BTW:  Low income housing is in short supply. If you are in a position to do something about it– DO IT.)

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In the midst of all that, having to listen to someone close say they think they are going to die during their upcoming surgery,  but not having any life threatening conditions.  It sounds like a plea to die, just to get “out”.   Out of the worries and stress of this life.  I do not want this. Then the constant, “You’re not going to get a boyfriend if something happens to me are you?”  “That’s what you’ll do when I’m in the hospital– go out partying, right?  Is that what you’re going to do when I’m dead?”  How in the world do you get it through someone’s head, even after 20 years, that you’re NOT that kind of person???  Even after you’ve practically given up everyone, and everything, just so you could please them, and reassure them that you’re not going anywhere?  Well, the answer is you can’t.  It won’t matter what you do or say, you can not change someone’s inner insecurity, or their mental status.  You may be able to affect them temporarily, but it seems their long-term inner workings won’t change.  These people have to grow out of it themselves, and apparently, some people never do.  So you put up with their whining harassment of you or you don’t.   This is my life now.  But I can adjust to how I react to it, and I am getting better at doing that.
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The neighbor’s cows got loose, and lived it up on grass for a about a week.  Then there was a little 3-horse stampede up the driveway after that.  No real harm done, just some cow piles left for the dogs to (UGH) sniff and lick (EWWWW.)  NO –  I do not encourage that.  For some reason, dogs inherently want to eat other animals’ poo.  They seem to especially like rabbit poo and deer poo.  Think about that the next time you let them lick your face. “Awwww, you cutesy, utesey, baby girrrrrl!  I love ya!”    Smooch, smooch.  Lick.......  It’s better just to give them hugs, okay?  Which mine get on a daily basis.  Also, don’t kiss your chickens on the lips either, EMMkayyy??

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I finished one mitten in all this time, this early 2019.  It looks pretty cute.  It’s for a little waif, who said her hands were cold....This one charges me $2.00 a dozen for some of the best eggs on the planet.  She’s the youngest farmer I ever met.  And she loves me.
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Some people within the Catholic church are really having “Come to Jesus” confrontations, aren’t they?  Seems like the church organization is going through a purge.  Jesus said He would do that.  It needs it.  I still like reciting the Rosary– it has become very comforting to me.  I also like the hymns we sing, and the basic needs the beliefs fill in my soul.  The Holy Family.  If I had revered this idea earlier in my life, I think sometimes I wouldn’t have made the mistakes I made, and hurt the people I hurt.  I asked a knowledgeable priest one time why the crucifix as our supreme symbol.  He said, “It’s to remind us of what Jesus did for us.”  It is not for any sadistic reasons, as some people want to think.  And as for Mary, the mother of Jesus.  She had to be a very holy person for God to choose her as Jesus mother.

I know so many of you don’t like the Catholic religion.  I myself, was raised in a Swedish Lutheran church.  The Lutheran church, was founded on Martin Luther’s Protestant reformation of the Catholic church.  My dear mother made sure she let us know her feelings about Catholicism.  (Not good.)  It’s funny though, how all of us married Catholics....


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Apparently, my body is very good at making kidney stones.  I don’t have a clue how to stop this from happening.  The doctors say drink lemonade, not iced tea.  That still doesn’t stop it.  Just another thing I have to live with. 

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Seems like everyone I know is troubled lately.  I really hope and pray things get better this year instead of worse.  In the meantime, I will continue to MAKE as much as I possibly can, as this fulfils a need in my soul to create beautiful, useful things.  I am still looking for my protégé to carry on what I have started in this life.  I am NOT dying. Yet.  I’d just like to hand over some of the knowledge and skills I have to someone younger, while I still have the ambition to do it.
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I wish I could go live in Scotland somewhere for about a year.  Sometimes I feel I need a different perspective on life.  But as a consolation, due to the terrain and the weather here on this mountain, I can pretend I am in Scotland or England when I feel like it.   There may also be some sheep in my future!!  My own little, dumb little critters, who need worming and heels trimmed all the time.  But it would be worth it.  I’ll let you know....

“What do you want most in life?”   “World Peace,” the pageant contestant said.

XXOO, BB

Monday, November 25, 2019

14 Peonystreet Project Bag - New!

One of my favorite words is "new".
And one of my favorite quotes is 
"Necessity is the mother of invention".
Introducing the 14 Peonystreet Project Bag!
I've been doing LOTS of knitting in the last year, due to 
my world being turned upside down.  
I looked at a lot of patterns for bags, but I'm hardly ever satisfied with someone else's design.  So I made my own.  It has a fabric divider on the inside, to hold two balls of yarn, for knitting brioche patterns or socks.
Finished it yesterday, taking residence on my knitting chair today!
Isn't she cute??!
Here's the sock I'm working on.  It's the Fluorite Sock by Andrea Mowry of Drea Renee Knits.  I'm using a self striping/varigated sock yarn, instead of the fade technique.
It's a toe up pattern.  The sock is reversed (inside out) when finished.  I already have a taker when it's finished, but they're going to have to wait til Christmas!
This is on a rainy day, here on the farm.  It's only snowed frosting once about a month ago, so far.  It's technically not winter yet.  
It's been an entirely too long year, very tiring.
Hope yours has been better than mine.
Take care, and Happy Thanksgiving!

Saturday, February 9, 2019

My Sermon

My Sermon

If I could preach one sermon in my life, I would want it to be this one, based on 1 Corinthians, chapter 12, verses 12 through 31.  This is in St. Paul’s first letter to the Cornithians, about how to conduct themselves as believers in Christ.

We are one body in Christ, with many parts.  We all have gifts and talents that we need to use in service to others.  Find what your gifts are, find your talents.  And do not hide your light under a bushel, NO.  Let your light shine.  Be not afraid.  Your gifts and talents are not meant for you to hoard them all to yourself.  They are meant to share.  You never know who might need them each day.  You never know what word, act, or kindness will make a difference in any person you meet.

In the words of Susan Branch:

“Go.  Be.  Love.  The world needs you.”

Tuesday, January 15, 2019

My Space

Night View

This is how my world looks at night in winter.
It makes me feel like I'm wrapped in a warm blanket, looking out on the "sea".
Early evening view
The old shed is a hangout for animals.
 This is my world inside the cocoon.

 I can't think of a nicer place to be when it's white outside.

And here would be the best place for a winter's nap--under a pile of quilts.
Here's hoping you have a space of your own to cozy under.

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